Tuesday, November 19, 2013

#85 Love

Love is not about selfishness
It's not about what is in for you but what you can give to someone that you love.
It's about looking at her smile, her laugh and her happiness.
And you will feel happy about it too. Instantly
The feelings don't go away. It's the nature.
You will feel bad if you see she's crying and the same theory applies to all.

When you try to make something, even though you know you cant or not good at it and you just do it.
That's love.

When you understand the feelings of your love on every second of the moment .. on every conversation you both had, whether sad, insecure, anxious, happy, jealous, mad, ignore and all of feelings that might came, you just know.
That's love.

When you are willingly to sacrifice anything and not even once try to reveal it to your partner or even bring it up when you're arguing, trust me.
That's love.

When you know you can't be there for her, but instead you give little things just to make sure that she felt your presence around her.
That's love.

Love can be many things, many thought and many other version.

When you know she's a keeper, please don't be a fool.

When she's trying to advise you, take it and do it. It's not that easy for her to advise, cause she know that you have that men's ego thing.

When she clearly, directly said that she doesn't like something, don't do that in the future. She'll be upset if you do it again, because she think that you doesn't listen to her.

When you know you're hurting her, yeah, she knows that you're sorry, but it's gonna take a whole lot more than just a sorry.

Don't ever try to test her.
You'll just ruin everything, her feeling, her trust on you.

When that women is a keeper, she kinda devoted her life to the one she loves.

You'll be her king.

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

# 83 I do

If you ask me what was my favourite moment with you, i would say our little adventure to Broga. 
You're the most motivational person ever in my life. You believe in me even though i said i cant do this over and over again. When i feel like giving up, you gave strength for me to reach to the top. 

If you ask me what is my favourite place for vacation, i would say anywhere as long as i am with you. I'll go anywhere. Even if i don't know where we're heading to, i don't care. Because i have you by my side. I know i'll be safe.

If you ask me, if there's another life, will i choose you or other guys, i would say it HAS to be you. You make me feel perfect. You treated me well. I could not ask for more. I am the most lucky girl to have you as my man. Yeah. I'm proud.

If you ask me would i spend one day with you and only stares at each other eyes, i would say id loved to ! Forget all the realities, let's just sink into fantasies. The best part is, we could talk about anything. We can spend hours and hours just talking. I know you don't realize this, but we're best friend-boyfriend-girlfriend type of relationship. 

If you ask me what are the moments that make me completely fall in love all over again is when you surprisingly came to Melaka even though you're sick just to ask me for late supper. Remember? I know you're worried because i haven't eaten for a day. Despite the fact that you're sick, you came and pick me up and we went for late supper. That was an unforgettable moment. 


If you ask me do i see you as my partner life, i would say i do.

p/s: you still give me butterflies whenever i see you

Monday, September 2, 2013

#81 Hang in there.

When i'm having troubles, i tend to push people away from me.
I assume that by pushing people away is good. Tak menyusahkan mereka dgn masalah aku. 
Sebab aku taknak susahkan sesiapa. Aku taknak org risaukan aku pasal masalah aku.
Let me just handle my prob. Somehow, aku tahu di situ ego aku tinggi.
Aku taknak org pandang rendah kat aku.
Sebab .. hm ... ego aku tinggi.

Tapi kadang kadang, aku tak sedar bila aku push people, aku menyesal. 
Org yang betul sayang kau, tiba tiba tak pasal2 aku suruh dia blah *as in blah from my life or cuma that moment (it's up to that person nak interpret mcm mana), dalam tak sedar kau kecil kan hati dia.
So i'm sorry for that. 

I'm not good on relationship.
But just ...... Bear with me, hang in there.
I will be forever here. 

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

#79 Revolution.

Hi Assalamualaikum.

So topic kali ni dedicate khas untuk masa aku di Melaka.

In case some of you guys taktahu, i'm in semester five dip of mascomm in Melaka.
And i have things to tell you guys.
What i've been through and all that stuff.

So lets start !

Well, aku duduk kolej putih for two semester. It was fun. Aku dapat ramai kawan because i was placed in a dorm w 25 other student.
Crowded? No man. Ada aircond. There's nothing yg aku nak sedihkan. Haha

Kalau nak ikutkan, macam macam orang aku jumpa.
Kind, too kind, too ignorant, selfish, helpful, badmouth, accusing, and so much more.

But one thing that I really learn a lot in uni's life is friendship.
Seriously, nak diikutkan aku memang tak ramai kawan kat uni.
Not because aku sombong or what.
But aku serik.
Dulu, aku suka kawan dgn ramai org, tapi when ppl start to talk bad things about you, behind your backs. And that friends is a person whom you trust. It just broke my heart. And cerita buruk pasal aku, make other ppl start to make face in front of me, you know stuff like that.
You will never know perasaan aku.
And sejak drpd tu. Aku mcm tekad.

Biarlah kawan sikit. Asalkan mereka cukup membantu aku.
Baik buruk aku.
Nak kata trauma pun ada. Sebab since that incident happen aku macam susah sikit nak percaya org.
Haha. But now aku okay dah la. Mcm biasa je. Hehehe :D But still.... friend less and trust less.

So, kat uni ada several friends je yg really know what goin on w my life.
Yana is a big helper. Although dia jenis takde perasaan, macam suka-hati-kau-nak-buat-apa feelings.
Kadang2 tu rasa nak toing je dia. Hahaha.
As i said, dia byk jugak la tahu pasal apa jadi semua2.
Sikit sebanyak aku mengharap or refer kat dia.

Second is izzati. Dia sangat memahami. Seriously you can relate everything to her.
Sebab dia banyak go through incident in her life. In love, in friendship.
But now dia dah hilang. Not literally hilang. Dia cuma ada masalah yg aku sendiri taktahu apa.
Terkejut kot tiba tiba je.
So, hmmm dia tak masuk uni lagi. And .. lost contact.

Khaliq is also one of the big helper. When i feel sad or excited.
Opinion dia walaweh. Hahaha. Panjanggggg sampai aku terfikir dua kali.
Kadang2 mcm terasa sedih tp it's true tho apa dia ckp.

My life in Melaka, are not as interesting as everyone else. My life is just a simple ordinary student would do.
I get up go to class, do assignment, watch movies when i'm bored, eat maggi when i'm broke, i don't get an excellent result, i don't know how to interact and i loveeee to sleep.

Well, that's pretty much my revolution selama four semester. I've grown up well. Mature? Close.

Till then, goodnight lovers. xx

p/s: Dulu, i hve one big family in Melaka. And now i miss them.